Hello Darling,
I'm not sure who you are. I don't know if you're a stranger or someone I have already met. I have no idea where you live, who you're with, or what you're doing. Despite all the unanswered questions, I already love you.
I have been preparing to meet you my whole life. For many years I have looked for you. There has always been an aching in my heart that only you could fix.
There have been men along the way who I wanted so bad to be you. As time went on, I realized that they were not you. They did not match me in my journey. Because of that I know that I have to keep looking for you, just as I hope you are still looking for me.
I have learned so many lessons through this journey. The experience has taken a young 18 year old girl once full of hope and naivety and bruised and broken her to her very core, almost pushing her to the point of giving up completely. It has crushed dreams and illusions of what I thought love was going to be. It's been 15 years of sleepless nights, settling, crying, depression, rejection, and regrets. It has challenged me to look at myself and see what I needed to change to be a better partner and better to myself. It has forced me to see that happiness isn't found in another person, but in yourself.
I feel like I am being shaped into the perfect woman for you. I am grateful for everything that went wrong, the lessons, and the personal growth I have been able to achieve by time alone. I have had years to observe successful relationships, failed marriages, and have seen the beauty and ugliness of it all. I have also traveled and lived life to the absolute fullest. I feel like all of these experiences have opened me up to see who I really am and what kind of person that I really need by my side.
The road has been tough, but it has been rewarding. I am more me than I have ever been and for that I know that I can present the best of myself to you one day; no insecurities, no fear, no games, and no restrictions. I am excited to take care of you, to cook for you, raise children with you, travel the world with you, be your biggest cheerleader, and love you in a way that only I can.
I will continue to love and live life until we meet. I am no longer looking to fill a hole in my heart, but with the overflowing love for myself that I have found, that love can spill over onto you.
I hope that you are loving, embracing, and growing in your life too. If things aren't going well, don't be discouraged, and please never give up on us or yourself. Things may be hard now, but the future will be great!
That I can promise you.
See you soon,
Brandy
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